Intimate Close-Ups of Ariana with Her Hair Lightened and Her Defenses Dropped
August 24, 2016
The kind of things that this image makes me want to write .. we should not venture down this path.
This dangerous path .. this dangerous, erotic path.
This is why I whispered to you, "What are you doing here, Ariana?"
( When I was analyzing this little clip of you.)
I dont know what you are doing .. but I can tell that I like it.
After seeing this little clip .. I feel like you are a different person.
Than you were before I saw this clip.
A bigger person.
A more complex and sophisticated person.
A more mature woman.
I see that you got your hair lightened .. I like it.
(I like everything about you .. I cant help it.)
My cousin Diane ( "Tunie Oonie Woonie" ) said that way more guys came on to her after she lightened her hair.
She said it made her seem more approachable.
(She said that she read about it in Cosmo .. she was definitely a Cosmo girl. She has good stories herself.)
I noticed some reddish auburn tints in your hair.
Reddish auburn speaks of passion .. wild, boundless passion.
This image, and especially the source clip, makes me feel weak.
I can totally feel the girly kryponite having an effect on me .. a powerful effect.
This is why I whispered, "What are you doing here, Ariana?"
Even tho I know what you are doing (.. in this little clip from which I captured this image of you).
I see how you Illuminati Ninja Princesses work.
I see your tricks, girly.
» Dropping Her Defenses .. Right Before My Very Eyes
This is exactly what I meant when I said that the young, industrial-strength hottie in the coffee shop » dropped all her defenses.
This is exactly why I would never go over there.
I readily admit to being too big of a pussy.
That is the look she gave me.
(You keep making my points for me.)
I'm not going to say that this is exactly the look (that she gave me) .. but it is "exactly" enough.
I can feel myself not thinking straight.
It feels like these girls are hypnotizing me.
It makes me feel out of control .. I normally do not like that feeling.
» The Manifold Hazards Associated with Dating a Writer
Have you ever dated a writer?
For most people, I would never recommend such a thing.
They are crazy, fucked-up people .. with more issues than the New York Stock Exchange.
They make neurotics seem perfectly normal.
And they always want to crawl around inside your head .. to see and analyze how you think.
They ask the most bizarre questions you've ever heard.
And they can be provocative .. in order to see how you respond to their provocations.
» Bound and Determined
If you are really bound and determined, despite all my warnings, to be quantumly entangled with me, girly ..
.. to have me light your ass up (.. I can feel you craving my energy) ..
then I feel obligued to declare at least some of my liabilties.
(Because I have so many of them .. so much baggage.)
When I enter a new relationship with a new girl ..
I am always impressed when they share with me some of their issues.
It gives me respect for them .. because honestly knowing yourself is very difficult. You know.
The biggest liability, perhaps, with a writer .. is that the writing often takes priority.
So if the relationship begins to demand more than it is yielding ..
then it is only a matter of time before it is finished.
I would be willing to wager, girly, that you have the following perspective when it comes to guys:
"if they are good for my singing, then they are good for me.
And if they are bad for my singing, then they are bad for me."
I know this feeling, girly .. because the writer is trying his best to stay alive.
(And it's not easy sometimes.)
So, if a girl is affecting my writing in a negative way .. then she is affecting me in a negative way.
And if such negativity continues .. then the end of such a relationship is already near.
I could really get off on a tangent here .. but then I would sound crazy.
So I wont go there.
But my point here, perhaps .. is that » some girls understand this, and some dont.
(You get this, girly.)
I have learned with singers .. that, if you can make them sing ..
if you can put a song in their hearts ..
then life suddenly becomes filled with wonder and enchantment.
One of the secrets, I have found, to finding a relationship that works ..
is when each other's issues complement, rather than antagonize, each other.
In other words » when they work together and not against.
This is why I am usually clear on either, "This is working for me,"
or, "This is not working for me."
Because, if it's not working for either of us, then why would we ever want to be together?
(Obvious answer » we wouldnt.)
But this here with you is working well for me. Very well, indeed.
(And fuck if it doesnt keep getting better all the time.)
» What Is It About You that Speaks to Me?
There's definitely something about you, girly.
Fuck if I know what it is.
But I intend to find out.
Writers and singers.
Sing me a song and I'll tell you a story.
» Is This From Your New Video with Nicki?
Oh, girly .. speaking of singing me a song .. is this clip from your new video with Nicki?
I was so dazzled and twitterpated by the visuals .. that I didnt even hear the story behind it.
I dont know how you have time to do all this stuff.
(There must be three of you.)
My sources tell me that you are going to be performing your new Side to Side song with Nicki at the VMAs.
At the Garden, no less. Oh, that's going to be lots of fun.
I can hardly wait .. I am very much looking forward to that. (You never disappoint.)
That's a nice groove.
Makes me feel like I'm at Bob Marley concert.
I'm not going to say that I have one love for you, girly.
(But I could.)
» The Creative Process in Action
I got a few statements of my own I'm going to be making.
Stand the fuck by.
(You should probably look around for something sturdy to grab hold of.)
But first, you need to get on the floor .. and do your thing.
"This is what I do. You might wanna step back .. for your own safety.
"And put on these here thermonuclear-grade sunglasses. The flash can get bright."
» This Made Me Want to Have At You
I wanted to have sex with you after I saw this annoucement.
I didnt try to feel this way .. I just did.
» I'm Not Going to Tell You the Thing that Made Me Want You
I am not even going to tell you what it was .. that did it for me.
Back on Page Four I wrote » "Remind me to tell you about the thing that really did it for me ..
.. where I felt my last bit of resistance crumble."
[ Page Four seems like a hundred years ago now. ]
I hate to keep returning (not really) to that something 'bout that you sing about
but it really is very much about that something.
You just cant help it.
Notice how you are not even in this video.
I mean, sure, there are some photos of you .. but you are not even singing here.
Only your voice, your speaking voice, is here.
And you say some cool shit .. that made me want you.
But it's never what you think.
That's why I told you to ask me .. because I know you want to know what it is.
(Your secrets are safe with me, lover-girl.)
There is a thing .. were girls just seem to know how to say the exact-right thing ..
in the exact-right way, at the exact-right time .. in a way that works for me.
(Even when you sometimes wish they wouldnt.)
It feels like they have access to my deep, inner parts.
What a feeling you give me.
It shouldnt be possible .. yet there it is.
I like the way I get to see the actual process of creativity in this 60-second short.
That's the reason why I grabbed the image of the paintbrush painting those girly colors.
The creative process.
My creativity obviously likes you.
(It likes you a lot.)
I create whole worlds and universes for you, girly .. right before your very eyes.
I feel like I'm just getting warmed up.
Oh .. it looks like Britney is also going to be doing her thing.
Say hi for me.
Tell her that I wrestled with a few pythons myself .. so I can certainly sympathize.
The thing about Britney that really freaked people out ..
was the way she sexualized herself .. at such a young age.
People simply did not know how to handle that.
She was totally working the Lolita vibe .. in a big way.
Unapologetically .. kissing Madonna with an open mouth and whatnot.
(It's not just older men who can appreciate the Lolita vibe.)
You parallel her there .. so I'm sure you resonate with her easily and naturally.
Britney says that the VMAs dont just give you a stage .. they give you a » story.
If anybody would know...
» A Bothered State of Sexual Frenzy
Look at all the parallel lines in this shot.
So many parallel lines .. that I can hardly stand it.
Kudos to whoever crafted this shot .. artistic kudos.
Parallel lines speak to mathy people like me.
I dare not tell you what they are saying.
I will come over there and fan your ass, girly .. I will fan your ass right-proper.
I see how hot you are.
How hot-n-bothered you are.
I almost feel sorry for you .. being so hot-n-bothered .. but I know better.
(Than to feel sorry for you.)
» Getting Slippery Under Slanty Sloping Ceilings
The singer-girl, the California girl, the LA woman .. she lived in a third-floor (top) apt there in New Haven.
The kind with the same slanty, sloping ceilings .. like you have here in this teaser.
That sucker would get seriously hot in the summer.
She had a fan, but we would get a serious sweat going .. during the heat-waves.
(After coming home from dancing.)
You get kinda slippery when you get real sweaty, you know.
We got slippery a lot there in her roof apt .. with the slanty sloping ceilings.
It was a small apt. She had thrown a mattress on the floor in the living room. I loved that.
This girl was always game for whatever.
She blew my mind a number of times.
Everybody liked her.
Even Nana went out of her way a few times to say,
"That's a nice girl. I like Kristen .. I like her a lot."
If Nana said your girlfriend was cool .. you were golden.
I would have to think about it ..
but I think that I felt the most healthy with her.
(She was certainly whipping plenty of therapy sessions on my ass.)
I can see now .. that I was not ready for a girl like her.
I thought that I knew more than I really did.
I did not even know how far ahead of me she was .. until much later.
» The Coolest Friends
She had the coolest friends, too.
Speaking of the coolest friends...
These Fifth Harmany girls are obviously feeling the love.
Camila is giving me the secret Illuminati hand sign while Lauren is happily touching herself.
I like these girls. (Who doesnt?) I like singers .. always have.
This thing you do here with your voice at t-3:17 .. this is very fucking cool.
I can totally see why these Fifth Harmony girls are feeling you.
I do not even know what you are doing with your voice here ..
.. it is sort of a stop-n-go thing with the beat.
This is very cool, girly .. the way you did that.
» 2016 VMA Performance of Side to Side w/ Nicki at MSG in NYC
I was being a little funny there, sure .. but I would normally never write such a thing.
And I had no idea that this performance was going to feature a work-out environment.
Maybe I am feeling you more than I think I am.
I couldnt help but notice the concentric rectangles behind the cycles.
This is normally an illusion to the effect you get when mirrors cover both walls ahead and behind.
So the cyclists can observe their form.
» A Lover Who Challenges Us to Grow and Expand Our Horizons
I admit to being a little freaked out by your ending.
More than just 'surprised' .. but yes, definitely surprised.
I wouldnt say 'shocked' .. but definitely heading in that direction.
If you saw my reaction .. I'm sure you would laugh.
I can feel it challenging me .. such as the way you close your eyes there and turn your head away.
And the look on your face leading up to this moment is very serious .. you are not playing.
Not even a little. You leave the uncomfortable viewer no wiggle room.
Which is why this would be banned in many countires.
Nicki looks like she is playing the part, but you look like you have experience here.
You look like you are enjoying the moment a little too much maybe.
Certainly from my perspective you are.
It's good when a lover challenges us .. no?
When they challenges us to grow .. to expand our world.
When they are able to break us out of our comfort zones .. to embrace new horizons.
[ Why am I having a déjà vu right now? ]
I think I will be using this image of you .. in my racy homage.
That is not an easy page to write.
Not the way I write.
There are actually a few places .. where I could use this image.
The things you make me feel ...
» Olympic-Grade Fully-Extended Flying-Atomic Inverted Woo-Woo on the Pommel Horse
In the scene where you lie back on the pommel horse
I thought of where I wrote » ".. she wont know which way is up."
And you do the woo-woo thing there.
You know, girly .. I've had some training in OSHA regulations.
And this stuff you are doing here .. such as these inverted flying woo-woo's
and standing on those bicycle seats while wearing those shoes.
If I were there, I would have to cite your ass for numerous safety violations.
And I'm sure this would take some time.
I'm sure the associated fine would be most severe.
» No Wonder Mariah Carey Hates Her
Oh, girly .. I just saw this reaction video .. to your live VMA performance.
Some British-sounding dude.
He said, "Holy shit .. this girl is singing while riding an exercise bike. No wonder Mariah Carey hates her."
( I thought that was funny .. so I wanted to share it with you. )
» Side to Side Official Video Release
I did see the official release video of this song, but I am not yet prepared to discuss it.
(Girly, you are gonna get us in trouble yet .. so much trouble. Girls like you are always trouble.)
( The thing is .. people will say, "Ariana was such a nice girl .. until she got involved with that writer." )
[ Erin is wondering (at t-6:00) from whence your inspiration was derived. She's not alone in her wondering. ]
( You are mining me .. for ore .. while I am mining you. That almost sounds sexual. )
I will say however, that
I saw a handful of reaction videos.
(I wish that these 'reactors' would share their city/state and country.)
And viewers seem to feel that this is your best video yet.
And the part where Nicki raps "Young Ariana run pop" ..
a number of viewers turn to the camera at this point and comment, "She *does* run pop."
(Some also say about Nicki, "She *is* the queen of rap.")
They arent so much bragging on you .. as they are simply acknowledging the obvious.
I found these comments more than interesting.
I am not pop-savvy enough to know the current state-of-affairs.
But this is a huge fucking statement.
And I understand that personal preference comes into play, sure.
Simply being popular is one thing .. but running pop .. ooh, that's something else entirely.
That would make you a powerful woman .. which would naturally make you dangerous.
I had not even heard of you until a couple of years ago .. and now you are "running pop"?
Good thing I did not know this about you.
Because then I would never have had the huevos rancheros to write this sassy shit.
» Makin' Everybody Think that We Solo on the Down-Low
I have experience tiptoeing down hallways and sneaking out of fancy-ass resorts .. very early in the morning
at the crack of dawn, when the dew is still forming on the grass.
And the only thing awake with me are all these birds.
I remember thinking, "What a beautifully manicured place .. so this is how the other half lives."
And I was debating whether to take a shower .. because I was wearing her elixir.
And it felt so amazingly good.
But I was just going to get some more on me tonight, anyway .. so why not freshen up?
And then there are the stolen glances at work .. that say so much.
You know what I'm talking about.
Speaking of which ...
We have been doing this secret flirty stuff long enough .. that I can see that you are good at what you do.
Very good, indeed. Your skills and your talents and your gifts are no big secret.
Surely you must know some secrets .. you must have an intuitive feel for how these 'pop' things work.
I have no appetite for such things .. or, maybe I just have no stomach for it.
(My values lie elsewhere.)
So I cant help but feel curious about your intuitions on the subject.
See .. poppy things (for me) are » "out there" .. so to speak.
(In this respect, Ariana, I feel as tho I am able to live vicariously thru you .. to a degree.)
(Notice also how Gaga speaks of the trauma of sudden fame.)
But I am primarily interested in
exploring (in this phase of my life) the inner space (where God resides).
Speaking of exploring the inner space ...
» The Zen Master Speaks to Focused Attention
Along these lines of our conscious attention being d.r.a.w.n. by "the thing" that most strongly commands our attention ..
I once read a fascinating passage in a chapter titled » Consciousness and Concentration
.. where a Zen Master is quoted (page 33) as saying »
»» No one can possibly concentrate intentionally upon a given object. This is a fact of truth; try it. ««
The passage from this Zen Master is actually a whole page. I will not cite the entire thing.
But he goes on to say »
»» In fact, we focus our attention, concentrate, on the strongest thought,
that which arouses the most interest, that which presents itself at any moment. ««
The rest of the passage expounds on what he means by this.
But these two sentences carry the weight of his message.
The reason why I find this perspective interesting,
and the reason why it comes to mind now,
is because I find myself (quite naturally) focusing on you.
You are certainly a beautiful, sparkly creature.
So I probably shouldnt be surprised .. yet I am.
I thought about some of the Zen things after seeing how long this writing has gone on.
And I caught myself thinking, "I just cant seem to quit this girl."
Who is able to do such a thing?
Show me the man.
This I will need to see for myself.
Speaking of beautiful, sparkly creatures ...
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