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Getting ready for first day tomorrow with son in 4 months. Excited. Kinda like getting ready for a big date. Planning my day: pick-up > home > park > beach > feed > nap > etc. I still have lots of kid left in me, so it shouldn't be too hard to relate. ••• continued ••• My biggest disappointment is that, given the schedule, it will be another year before I'll be able to take him for a walk on the beach at sunset .. like I used to .. everyday .. it was our special ritual .. just the two of us .. .. to hear the sea lions bark .. waves crash .. smell the salt air .. night-blooming jasmine .. watch the sky grow dark. It's a magical time. I live a block from the beach. And Laguna is spectacularly beautiful. Friends have been supportive, bringing over little nicknacks I might need. One came over last night and "smudged" the place. Non-Lagunatics probably aren't familiar with the term. I didn't know what it was until after I moved here. It's a native American thing, I believe, where you burn some sage, then blow it out, in order to make smoke. You then walk around your home, and the smoke is supposed to cleanse the air (of "bad energy"). Sounds corny, I know, but it really does seem to introduce a freshness. White sage is supposed to be the good stuff. Okay, HERE is a good link that describes it. It's supposed to be a religious / spiritual thing. After running reactors, this kind of thing takes some getting used to. But I try to keep an open mind. Other cultures have always fascinated me, and Laguna is certainly a sub-culture unto itself. There's a show on TV (MTV) called Laguna Beach: The Real Orange County. Which is a joke, cuz anyone who lives here knows Laguna is *nothing* like the rest of Orange County. It is a bubble. Locals are known as Lagunatics. They are "into" strange things (e.g. smudging, crystals, massage, drumming, mediatation, yoga, etc.). Hence the moniker. You can actually detect a difference when you come to (and leave) Laguna. Anyway, first time I experienced smudging was following a massage (here in Laguna, of course). Smelt something burning. Seemed odd at the time, but I have since warmed to such things, eventually becoming a bonified Lagunatic myself. Tho I will admit, it took a few years. Before you know it, you're one of them. I also picked up some lavender scent, cuz we had that in the hospital room when the little guy was born. Might trigger some early memories for him. Less than 24 hours to go. Hope I can sleep tonight. Thanks for all your letters of support. Every one. They help more than you know. |
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